Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Walking through Fog

I don't know what it is about fog that intrigues me. It seems like this season of the year (Fall in most parts of the country...) brings a lot of opportunities for fog. Maybe it's the unknown; maybe it's not being able to see right in front of you. I don't know, but something in me stirs when I see/experience fog.

The last few weeks have been really foggy in my heart. I've been extremely busy, probably too busy, and haven't given my whole heart to anything. To be honest, it feels like I'm out of control right now. Nothing 'feels' secure and there are a lot of things that need shoring up in my leadership. Quite a few things that need me to make a final call, but I'm unsure. Even more, I'm worried about making the wrong decision or being too ambitious. Reality is, I don't know if our church can afford "too ambitious" right now. I'm trying to challenge them out of mediocrity and settling but I'm also trying to be wise about the people and resources we have.

All in all, there is a lot of unknown ahead of me - it's very foggy from where I'm sitting. Right now, I'm trying to put one foot in front of the other and keep walking through fog.


1 comment:

Cody said...

I heard Francis Chan talk about Isaiah 40:22 and he used a 'grasshopper' analogy. He was saying that we hop along the path and come to a giant wall. We want to get beyond the wall and we pray and pray for God to knock the wall down. Eventually the grasshopper figures out that he can go around it and when he gets to the other side, he sees his best friend standing there. If God would have knocked the wall down, it would have killed his friend. It is kind of a stupid analogy but it has been a great reminder that God is enthroned above me and sees through my 'walls' and knows what is there when I face those times of uncertainty. Your post just reminded me of that brotha...