My wife and I celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary today. Words fail to express my gratitude to the Lord for the gift I received in marriage. Below is a letter I sent to Lauren a few days before our wedding. It's a bit long, but every word is true. I could add many words to this, but this captures my heart still today.
I sit here right now, 8 days from you and I becoming us. It is amazing to think that in just 8 days something you and I have asked of God will finally come true. I cannot tell you how overwhelmingly excited I am about becoming your husband. I do not deserve the title ‘husband’ but I will hold it as the highest honor of my life!
It is difficult for me to put into words exactly what is on my heart. I cannot believe that the Lord has blessed me with you! I could be thankful for you for a thousand lifetimes and it still would not be enough to express my gratefulness to Him! The blessing that you are and have become is, next to my salvation, the epitome of my life. I realize that God has given you to me as a responsibility, but I know that He has placed you in my life to show me exactly how much He loves me. I hope and pray that our life together will be a picture to you of how much Jesus loves you. I pray that everyday could be just a snapshot of His love and grace for you. It is absolutely the greatest feeling inside humanity to know that God has given us one another to show His love for us; that we have the privilege of speaking to the world, through our union, God’s thoughts for them. What an awesome thought!
“You are altogether beautiful my darling, and in you there is no blemish.” – SOS 4:7
I found this verse the night that I picked up your wedding ring. I began to think about the meaning of that ring and what you would think every time you look at it. I know that we will hear this on our wedding day but I’ll say it again. That ring is a picture of an unending, unbroken, pure and unblemished commitment that I make to you; to covenant with you and Jesus that our marriage is His from the very beginning. I promise that I will honor, cherish, and most importantly love you regardless of the circumstances in which we find ourselves. I pray that the first thought in your mind each time you see the ring on your finger is the covenant that we have made to one another to rely on Christ as our strength, peace and joy; the covenant of our marriage to one another and the devoted promise that we have made to love one another only. Even more than that ring, I thought about this verse and you. You are altogether beautiful! You are God’s creation and His gift to me! I pray that God gives me keen eyes to see you as He sees you, not just physically beautiful, but emotionally, spiritually and mentally beautiful. That is altogether! Every part of you is beautiful and I am so undeserving!
I cannot wait for the doors to open and our eyes to meet as you come down the aisle! I can only imagine the emotions and thoughts that will flood my soul at that moment. My beautiful bride, coming down the aisle, dressed in white…your day has finally arrived! I cannot wait!!!!
“An excellent wife, who can find? Her worth is far more than jewels.” Proverbs 31:10
I have found an excellent wife! I cannot express how awesome it is to know that God has made provision for us to be husband and wife! We owe Him a lifetime of worship and devotion to show our gratitude for His movement in our lives! I pray that we can worship Him in Spirit and truth for all of our days together! I pray we can rear our children for His glory and service and for His namesake. May every movement and action of our lives be for the honor of our Savior and Lord Jesus!
“We love, because He first loved us.” I John 4:19
May this principle be the source of our love and strength for our commitment to one another! Regardless of how awesome or tough our circumstances may be, nothing can be more sacrificial than the love that God has shown us through Jesus. May our love be as sacrificial for one another, painting the sweetest picture of the love and grace shown to us by Christ and His atonement for us!
I love you, my bride! I cannot wait to spend the rest of our days together!
I love you, sweetheart. I praise God for you!